Polyphasing – Day 1 Gone

7:40, the next morning, I’ve been awake for two hours and forty minutes. When I woke up, I felt like all I wanted to do was go back to sleep. It required a lot of willpower to not give in. While Steve Pavlina kept busy by reading and cooking, I’m grateful for my computer games. They keep me awake and entertained. Maybe I’ll do some cooking later in the week.

11:10, passed my first nap, I felt seriously tired leading up to this nap and it felt like I barely slept. I kept fading in and out of sleep and felt like I was fading in and out of lucid dreaming. It was like shifting from first to third person perspective and then some more back and forth. I woke up feeling like I haven’t slept at all and it looks like the next five hours of waking time will take a lot of willpower to accomplish.

20:26, we drove back home and are safe back in our apartment. I felt completely zombified through the 14:00, one hour drive, like that point where you admit you can’t be driving anymore only way past it. I took a nap around 16:00 and felt like I managed to sleep a little. Still felt tired when I woke up, thinking that I know why most people fail at this transition: it’s hard work. I fell tired and achy and always like I’ve been on my feet all day. But now, after some activity and a light dinner, I feel better. Still yawning but better. I really hope the adjustment period is only a few days. I might break, otherwise.

But happy birthday to my lovely wife!

4:49, I’ve just woken up from my core sleep and this feels like full on zombie mode. Like I’ve just been woken up for the worst guard duty ever. I fee my self slipping away for a moment. And i have to do all this without outside chemical hep. I’ve had to stop and start this paragraph several times. What I’m sure of is the fact that I won’t be going to Olamot. My experiment has gone too far, to the point where  I really can’t drive. Hopefully, zombiness will subside. Planning to take a shower soon, maybe that will help. I’ve finished writing this paragraph at 5:04.

13:32, I took my nap around 9 and now I feel better but I think I fucked it up. I was tempted to nap again immediately and I yielded. I’m afraid this might have made the whole thing longer and more complicated. I need to nap again in about an hour and I still have a bit of a headache. Here’s hoping for the best.


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