The Trouble with AuDHD
Get this, of all the prescription drugs we buy regularly (and there are quite a few), of all the medicine that like while the doctor’s note to buy, the hardest one to get is methylphenidate (a.k.a Ritalin), the one that treats ADHD. By hard to get I mean I can only buy one pack, a month’s supply, I have to do it on a specific day, only I can do it, because they require ID, that they photocopy every time. Are you following? The drug that is supposed to help people with attention disorders, with executive dysfunction issues, with a serious problem of just generating enough motivation to do anything, even things they know are good for them, sometimes even things that make them happy, is the most difficult thing to buy. How the fuck does that make sense?
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What’s is like being me?
It’s spending two hours drinking calm tea, laying back, breathing, meditating so I can calm my heart rate and the general anxiety enough to actually have a day. It’s sitting down to write, that I love to do, staring at the heading, knowing what needs to go under it, having ten more ideas and being unable to move my fingers. It’s looking at another project I love, at something easy to do for it, something that might get more eyes on it, and just closing it because I can’t bring myself to. It’s being unable to be productive and then not allowing myself to do relaxing, fun, energetic things because I wasn’t productive enough yet. It’s knowing that walking down a path will just be a net good for me and that I can stop whenever it’s too much but being unable to take the first step. It’s liking a very minimalistic, strictly ordered environment while the inside of my brain is a dark mess of sharp broken pieces of trepidation and phobias.
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In a War for Existence, the Ones who Deny it Will Always Lose
Karl Popper explained the Paradox of Intolerance. Meaning, a society must be tolerant except for intolerance. If it doesn’t, it self destructs and its tolerance along with it. Intolerance is growing rampant in the world manifesting mostly as some people denying the right to exist to other people. Hamas denying Israel, Israel denying Palestinians, far right wingnuts in the US denying self-determining women, Russians denying Ukrainians, Chinese denying Taiwanese. A person can not live in a society or come to an agreement with another person if that other person denies the first person’s right to exist. A woman who wishes to not have kids, and invest in her career instead, can not live in the same society with a man who thinks all women are good for is for making babies. The same way, we can not come to an meaningful agreement with Hamas or Khezbollah when their primary desire is the non-existence of Israel. We can also not resolve the Palestinian problem when there are people in government who don’t believe Palestinians should exist. The only ways to resolve this paradox is with the eradication of intolerance or of the people suffering from the intolerance. In the former case, the deniers lose. In the latter case, it’s more likely people will die and then good luck existing in a world of tolerant societies, and the deniers lose again. There is another way, if intolerance takes over the world. In that case, we’ll probably self-destruct as a human race.
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